mom: did you get your grades back?
mom: really? cause your teacher called.
What I mean when I say “I can’t do that”- Anxiety Version:
- I am unable to do that
- I am too stressed out to do that
- I cannot face the humiliation of attempting to do that
- My body will physically not allow me to do that
- I am on the verge of a panic attack
- I cannot do that
What people hear:
- I am unwilling to do that
- I am just shy
- I am overreacting
- I am lazy
- I need to get more experience in social situation to help my anxiety
- I need a push
- I don’t want to do that
Inspired by X
Paintings in Detail - Edmund Blair Leighton + Clothes
For me, I think about life a lot. Probably too much actually but lately I’ve been thinking about how fast we change. Like the phases we go through, like I’ll go through a hat phase, or like a curly hair phase and a different phase. But I think there’s so many personal phases we go through too. How we feel and what we believe and how we feel about ourselves and the world and it’s just a rabbit hole. But considering how fast we change I kinda find comfort in knowing that we’re never the same person for too long. We’re always learning and growing because that way making mistakes doesn’t seem so scary. Like making mistakes can be an incredibly good thing because it will teach you something, and hopefully you won’t make the same mistake again, and one mistake I have made in the past is thinking I knew everything and I now know that I don’t and I think I’m going to know that for the rest of my life because we never know as much as we are going to know someday. But, you know there was a time when I thought I had it all figured out and I think that was about when I was fifteen.
Someday, I’ll be, singing this at the Grammys… and all you’re ever gonna be is Mean.
Why you gotta be so, Mean?